Hope you are all doing well. Can you believe 2020 is almost over! I don’t know why I feel like once it’s January 1st, COVID will no longer exist. Wouldn’t that be amazing?!?! Imagine waking up on New Years Day and this nightmare is finally over. We can go back to seeing friends and family, we can go out to restaurants freely etc. I have battled with so much anxiety this last year I’m just ready to move on, start to heal and get on with my life. This year has come with so many challenges but I know it has only made me stronger. I went from not leaving my house, spraying down my groceries and only eating from home to now going out, working in a school and going out to eat. Don’t get me wrong I’m still very scared and anxious about COVID but at the end of the day I’m doing my best to stay safe and that’s all I really have control over. Every little tickle or sniffle and I get so worried but I know my anxiety is making it more then it is. And what ends up happening is my anxiety makes me more sick and doesn’t allow me to heal and recover. I’m just so thankful there are only 2 days left until Christmas break and I can enjoy some time with my family and take so time for some much needed TLC.
Most people I talk to say 2020 has been the worst year ever. If you have been reading my blogs you know 2019 wasn’t a good year for me either, so I’m hoping that 2021 can bring some joy, happiness and good health to me and my family. I’ve been so grateful to land myself a temp position in a kindergarten class until the end of January with potential for extension which is amazing because the school is close to my house, the students are great, my teaching partner is wonderful and I’d rather have a class then supplying at different schools everyday . I was so upset after quitting the daycare back in September and I regretted it but had I not done that then I wouldn’t have had this amazing opportunity, so I guess everything happens for a reason.
Thankfully I’ve been able to speak to my therapist through the pandemic and she’s really helped me through some difficult things but nothing in comparison to my mom. These last few months I’ve been struggling so much and she has been by my side, waking up with me at 3am to calm me down, making me tea whenever I want and rubs my back for hours. She’s honestly a super hero and I don’t think I will ever be half the women she is.
I’m hoping my 2 week Christmas break will bring me and her some comfort and peace we both deserve. I’m looking forward to baking, watching Christmas movies and lounging in my pjs. Oh and I forgot to mention, our family adopted a little puppy named Theo! He is so cute but very feisty, he needs some training lol. I hope he can bring some cheerfulness to our family especially during the holidays since we aren’t able to spend it with family.
This year has been hectic, scary, overwhelming, and unpredictable, wishing everyone a safe holidays and a better new year. Thanks for reading.
Deanna
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